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Light…

At the end of the tunnel. Maybe.

Be warned, this is very convoluted and probably confusing because I’m seriously giddy with disbelief and joy.

God, please let this work out. I have told no one - NO ONE at all (not even my husband) but I was offered a job this morning, pending background check, drug screen and reference check. I applied at this huge company a little over a month ago. I’ve wanted to work there for a few years now, but either I didn’t think to check the openings or when I did check, there were none. I emailed my resume around 0500 one morning, and I rec’d a call at noon that same day, asking me to come in and fill out an application and to do a first interview. I happily made an appointment for 3 days later and hung up. The very next morning, I get a call from a second recruiter (with same company) asking me to come in and do the same for a second position that’s open. I explained to her about recruiter #1, and she said she’d keep in touch with the first recruiter, and if the first job didn’t pan out, then she’d be calling me for the second one. Apparently you can only be considered for one job at a time. No biggie. I go in, fill out an enormous application (SEVENTEEN pages long, seriously), sign my freaking life away, agree to be investigated from yip to yang, do a short first interview whereupon I find out the job pays a good bit more per year than I currently make. . They explain (which I knew upon coming in) that positions are first offered to current employees, and there is a chance that this will happen with the job. Gotcha. A week later, I find out that that very thing had happened, but there is another opening for the same job, but the manager for that one is in the process of changing offices/buildings, and is not doing second interviews just yet, but I am still being considered. No probs. A tad disappointing, but I’m fine. A week later recruiter #1 calls me back and says that they are still not interviewing for job#1, but there is another opening (job#3 - job#2 was with recruiter #2) and they would like for me to come in for that one if I am interested. Again with the “Oh hell yes.” I go in, sit through a seriously insufferable interview until it gets time for me to ask questions, and I find out some very interesting things about the company. I’m allowed to go around and talk with current employees of the team I’ll be on, and almost without fail, people are quite content with their job. 2 persons flat-out said that that would be retiring with this company, because that’s how much they like it. I’ve worked with others in this department in the job I’m currently at (I work on an as-needed basis for corporations of a sort) and they also professed to be happy with what they do. I have to admit to being very impressed. The field I’m in currently is very draining, physically and emotionally, and I have immense responsibility for people’s lives, but not nearly the authority to go along with it. It sucks, to put it plainly, and I’ve dreamed (DREAMED) of getting the hell out, but at the same time I worked so incredibly hard to obtain my degree, and I’ve been in this profession for over a decade. Surely it wasn’t all for naught? Anyway, cutting to the chase, I was called and offered the position #3 today (3 hours before an interview for position #1, as they thought no offer was forthcoming for #3, LOL) and it’s a great big raise! I haven’t told anyone because I’m nervous as hell about the all the checking. No, I’m not a criminal, and my references should check out solidly (I’ve been with the same company since 1997, and in that time rec’d great feedback and ridiculous (in a good way) raises for doing the exact same job), and of course the drug screen will come back fine (going to get that done today), but at the same time… I can’t believe it’s coming together. I wanted so badly to just tell the people interviewing me “If you’ll just give me a chance, I can do this job. Tell me what to do and I’ll do it. I’ll come in on time, stay until it’s done, and do my duties competently and efficiently.”

Please let it work out. Please. The benefits are incredible (especially compared to the benefits I currently carry, with the company entitled Jack and Schitt) and there’s a gym I can use, and I can set up a savings account and a 401K, and I can have more money taken out for taxes (I’ll owe from current job), and I can actually sleep at night with my husband instead of sleeping during the day, being woken up by the phone, and never being able to do errands on a worknight, and I can set up automatic payments, and have direct deposit, and I can get my teeth cleaned and new glasses, and can get this pain in my side checked out again, and if it all works out, I’ll have benefits by the time my thyroid labwork is due, and God, it’s just so wonderful to think about. Thank you Lord. Thank you so much. Please, please let this work out for me. I’m just scared that my bubble will burst. Please let me have this chance. We’ve been through so much.

Tags: happiness, job, life